Nobody puts baillee in the corner

It’s officially been one week since KP passed away, and I’ve learned one thing: Grief is so freakin’ weird. I keep a tight schedule during my work week, and I’ve had to check three times what day it is. One second, I’m fine. The next, I want to melt into a puddle of my own…

For KP. For Always. There is nothing in adult life that can prepare you for having to search for urns on Etsy. Consequently, there is also nothing in life to prepare you for the conversation you have to have with one of the friend’s who is driving you back home after your mother has died…

My mother wasn’t perfect. I know that’s a weird way to start out a eulogy, but anytime I’ve told her she’s perfect, she’s just rolled her eyes and/or shaken her head wildly in disagreement. However, my mother was a whole lot of other things I would love to tell you about.  My mother loved fiercely…

Eek! It’s been so long since I’ve written a personal blog over here, so I feel like I should kick things off with an apology. I’m sorry, dear readers! Fortunately for you, I’ve been rewatching Awkward (it’s super problematic, but I’m on my ninth and final day of dog sitting/house sitting/watching multiple dogs, and I…

Age has never really bothered me, and 30 is no different. That’s right. I, Baillee MaCloud Perkins, will be turning the big 3-0 here in a few short months. While it doesn’t bother me, I feel like 30 comes with such a weird stigma. For some reason, some people associate it with becoming an “adult,”…

I’ve only been home for one of the past seven Christmases. As most of you know, working in the service industry often times doesn’t allow for a lot of time off at the holidays, if it allows for any at all. Sure, there are one or two others in there where I could take a…

During my Thanksgiving vacation, I watched a TON of ABC Family holiday movies. I also haven’t been dating recently or, more accurately, at all during this entire year. With those two forces combined (and with how my brain operates), I came up with a challenge for myself. I’ve always had a negative attitude about dating…

Tw: eating disorders  If you’ve been here before, you know we speak candidly here. If you’ve never been here before, hello! Just so you know, I speak very candidly here.  For those who don’t know, I have been in recovery for EDs for about five or so years now, and I struggled with anorexia and…

As most of you know, KP (my mom) is the big reason I’m into horror movies because we constantly watched them while I was growing up. Another thing you should know about KP is that she gets inconceivable joy from scaring people. This is exactly what leads into today’s story.  Carrie wasn’t my first horror movie,…

I’m not sure if it’s because I watched both Cabin by the Lakes as part of my mom and I’s Syfy Sunday movie marathon tradition multiple times growing up or what, but both of them hold a soft spot in my heart. It’s almost Pavlovian, but whenever I start this movie, I immediately start drooling for…