Nobody puts baillee in the corner

Open Graves is essentially 2009 personified. And, that’s important to remember as you watch it. Within the first five minutes, we have a graphic close up of someone getting their fingernail ripped off with pliers, surfer B-roll, and misogyny. If you aren’t familiar with this particular little flick, Open Graves stars Mike Vogel and Eliza…

When I was a teenager, I was obsessed with After Dark’s 8 Films to Die For. I made all of my friends watch them as soon as Blockbuster released them. They were the movies of choice for many a birthday movie night. I couldn’t wait to get my little, adolescent hands on their covers. I…

My 30 birthday is in less than 36 hours…and it marks the beginning of many firsts without my mom. There won’t be any pancakes or a bedroom room filled with balloons (which she sincerely did when I turned 15) or a card with the likes of a David Foster Wallace novel written inside that I…

I feel the need to always justify myself. I don’t know if it stems from things in my past or if it stems from my anxiety, but either way, I feel like I owe more of an explanation for this U-Haul situation.  Initially, I thought I would only have a few things to take back…

I’m so tired. In every sense of the word. I’m completely and utterly drained because today and yesterday have been really, for lack of a better term, shitty. We finally got my grandmother’s new phone set up (she had just been letting my mom pay her phone bill for over six years, and I can’t…

It’s officially been one week since KP passed away, and I’ve learned one thing: Grief is so freakin’ weird. I keep a tight schedule during my work week, and I’ve had to check three times what day it is. One second, I’m fine. The next, I want to melt into a puddle of my own…

For KP. For Always. There is nothing in adult life that can prepare you for having to search for urns on Etsy. Consequently, there is also nothing in life to prepare you for the conversation you have to have with one of the friend’s who is driving you back home after your mother has died…

My mother wasn’t perfect. I know that’s a weird way to start out a eulogy, but anytime I’ve told her she’s perfect, she’s just rolled her eyes and/or shaken her head wildly in disagreement. However, my mother was a whole lot of other things I would love to tell you about.  My mother loved fiercely…

Eek! It’s been so long since I’ve written a personal blog over here, so I feel like I should kick things off with an apology. I’m sorry, dear readers! Fortunately for you, I’ve been rewatching Awkward (it’s super problematic, but I’m on my ninth and final day of dog sitting/house sitting/watching multiple dogs, and I…

Age has never really bothered me, and 30 is no different. That’s right. I, Baillee MaCloud Perkins, will be turning the big 3-0 here in a few short months. While it doesn’t bother me, I feel like 30 comes with such a weird stigma. For some reason, some people associate it with becoming an “adult,”…