Nobody puts baillee in the corner

I’m dead tired of dating. I’m bored with carefully calculating every text, Snapchat, Facebook message, and the like. My eyes are going to permanently roll back in my head if I have to try to be nerdy (but not too nerdy), cool (but not too cool), or uninterested (but not too unintereted) with another dude.…

How do you completely move on? How do you finally convince yourself you cannot keep doing what you’re currently doing? (And if you do, they’ll be sending Nurse Ratched for you shortly.) How do you make yourself believe the potential doesn’t equate to the reality? I don’t know either, but that’s what I’m trying to…

Remember when I wrote a blog post less than 24 hours ago, boldly proclaiming my decision and how I said I learned something about myself, and it wasn’t about a person but rather the journey of self-discovery? It was all totally true. But it also wasn’t. You see, my decision to chalk this up as…

The past 48 hours of my life have been some of the most reflective. I realize, even moreso than I admitted the other day, that I’ve been completely jaded about relationships. You see, I’ve spent my life adamently against second chances. I never understood why my friends gave their significant others second, third, or even…

(This title is derived from a song used in Stranger Things, so now that I have proved my social relevance, you have to keep reading.)  This post started out as something monumentally different. It was a quaint and endearing post about having chemistry with people. It sweetly explained how you sometimes can’t shake the connection…

Three months ago, I lost my superhero. My grandfather was kind, smart, and compassionate. He valued humor above almost everything, and as I said at his funeral, he never failed to make you feel like the most special person in the entire room. A week before my grandfather died, one of my pop idols died.…

This may be the cheesiest and most cliche thing I’ve ever written, but for someone who hates thunderstorms, I respect the hell out of them. For me, they’ve always proven to bring some major changes with them, for better or worse, and I’m definitely in need of a little rejuvenation. (Strike what I said earlier.…

Several months ago, I entertained the idea of getting a second job again, and I was fortunate enough to get an interview for a server position at a restaurant. Everything was going well until I entered the last phase of the interview with the establishment’s manager. Now, I have been on many a job interview…

Trigger warnings: emotional abuse, verbal abuse, sexual assault, eating disorders, sexual trauma This post isn’t the usual. You see, it has taken me over two weeks to write because it’s been so emotionally draining. The Brock Turner case infuriates me, and the letter his victim wrote triggered me in a lot of ways, and her…

(In case you didn’t get the Sixteen Candles/Nicki Minaj mashup, this is a blog post about birthdays). It’s a little over a month until my 24 birthday, and I feel like it’s going to be a weirdly beautiful year because 23 has been an emotional roller coaster, to say the least. (I get it now,…