Nobody puts baillee in the corner

I have been in a total rut lately. I haven’t been able to get my footing with the holidays and a new job and having long hair for the first time in six years. Things are wild around these parts, but for the first time tonight, I got to sit down with some Indian takeout…

As some of you know, I started a new job this past weekend. This sentences always evokes the same question: Why did you leave? Truth be told, I loved my job, and I mean that. I learned a lot, I worked with some absolutely incredible people, and my boss was the best; quite frankly, this…

There will always be one person in your life you can’t shake. They’re the person who simultaneously puts a smile on your face while plunging a knife in your chest. Even though they destroy you time and time again, you’ll always go running to them the second they call out for you, the handle of…

I was trying to think of a clever opener for this post. I wanted it to be witty and smart, but everything felt contrived, so I decided to jump right in. Care for a dip? To utter the understatement of the century, this year has been hard. Don’t get me wrong; there have been some…

I’ve been 26 for 11 days, and let me tell you, my birthday week was a tease. I met Tonya Harding. I sang a crowd-pleasing rendition of “You Oughta Know.” I ate fudge, courtesy of my favorite Joyalty couple. It was wild. However, that was when I was young, naive, and barely 26. Now that…

At work, we have a running bit (for lack of a better word) about biggest fears. I usually say appendicitis, which is absolutely one of my biggest fears, but it’s not the biggest. My biggest fear is people only love the good parts of me, and they can’t handle/don’t want to deal with the bad…

Spoiler: this blog post doesn’t have a happy ending. There is no moment of clarity. There is no “but it’s okay.” Because I’m not. I’m not okay.  Everyone has been asking me that question, and I don’t know how to answer. I’m angry because my dad is dying, and there isn’t a goddamn thing I…

Do you ever just want to be better? Like full Legally Blonde, “Watch Me Shine” montage better? That’s how I’ve been feeling lately. I’ve been feeling like a slightly inferior friend, daughter, an inferior This is Us fan (and if anyone tells me what the significance of the crock pot is before I get caught up,…

99% of the time I help others. I have helped people move countless apartments. I have been the crying shoulder and voice of reason. Heck, I’ve even made many a Halloween costume. Today, I’m helping someone I often neglect: myself. I’ve been in a hole for a couple of months now, and I’m ready for…

03/06/2018 That’s the day I tried to self-harm for the first time in eight years, and I was able to stop myself. I don’t say this to cause any alarm or worry; I say this simply because it’s true. (And yes, I’m seeking out a therapist and everything, so don’t get caught up in those…