I can’t handle good things happening in my life. What a concept, right? I’m so used to things being so beautifully broken and fragile that it actually gives me more anxiety when things are good. I’ll try to self-sabotage (Hi, three bottles of wine). I’ll charge into a situation like a bull in a china…

(I know it’s a stretch, but I was pleased with myself). It’s funny how a song can take you back to an entirely different life, per se. The idea that a simple collection of notes and sounds can evoke some of the strongest emotions possible fascinates me.  “Forever” by Papa Roach reminds me of a…

Do not adjust your television set. I am indeed in a bra. Half of you are probably asking why this blog opens with a picture of me in my underwear while the other half is completely unfazed (Hi Mom). To clarify, this isn’t a Valentine’s Day gimmick. I’m not doing this for attention (Hi to…

I’ve always had a love/hate relationship with Valentine’s Day. I love giving my coworkers and friends little cards and treats. I love looking super cute every year for myself (because you should never feel pressured to dress up for someone and only do it if YOU want to) complete with my conversation heart cardigan. I…

First off, this post officially marks me being a tenth of the way done with the hundred blog posts I’ve committed to in 2019. WOWZA. I want to give a huge thank you to everyone who has told me how much they’ve enjoyed seeing all of the TwentyMineTeen posts. Please know I appreciate it, and…

I’ve been looking through my old journal entries, and I realized we haven’t heard from 13-year-old Baillee in a hot minute. Before we proceed any further, I want to throw out a couple of disclaimers: 1) I was an idiot, and I was a child. Keep that in mind. 2) I kept names in here…

I am comfortable in my own skin. Sure, it hasn’t always been this way, but after overcoming the eating disorders I struggled with throughout high school and college, discovering the power of self-expression through tattoos, and letting all of my artistic endeavors flow freely, I’ve been fully confident for about four years now. But sometimes,…

Recently, I’ve been thinking about a lot of “what ifs” and “could’ve beens,” including those in my love life. I’ll spare you the gritty details, my dear readers, at risk of sounding like a Halsey or Ariana Grande song. I digress.  I’ve been going through the heavy hitters of my past. The ones who would…

As many of your know, I’ve been off the grid the past few days. I had to limit my social media use and let some texts go without a response. You see, I had been slipping into some unhealthy habits. I had been drinking a lot. I had been fixating on things from the past…

It’s funny how one decision can alter an entire chunk of your life. With one move, things can be [Bander]snatched away. Over the past few months, I’ve been faced with several major decisions. Some have been as simple as whether or not to include a Black Mirror reference this early in the blog post; others, well, not…