Nobody puts baillee in the corner

I’ve been reflecting a lot on my past lately. Not in a self-depreciating way but to think about how far I’ve come. I recently went through the old backpack I would schlep back and forth to work, and I realized I had to work so many shifts as a barista, store manager, etc… that I basically lived out of it. 

I had four notebooks, a change of socks, a first aid kit, you name it. I was working 60+ hour weeks at jobs I absolutely hated. 

Now, I’m writing my own pop culture blog and gearing up to start my own YouTube channel. I have a good job. I’m surrounded by amazing and supportive friends. I’ve really come into my own.

And, it’s hard for me to admit it to myself. I spent the better part of today spiraling and trying to convince myself I couldn’t do this, even though I’ve proven I can.

I’m learning that it’s okay to publicly share my victories, and it’s even more okay to be excited for the future. It’s even okay to get talk about being excited for the future.

It’s okay to bet on myself and take risks. It’s even okay to put myself out there (creatively, that is) and collaborate.

It’s a weird space to be in, but I’m learning how to navigate it. One day at a time.

And one blog at a time.