Nobody puts baillee in the corner

Age? 30

Who was your first crush? Aside from celebrity crush, Johnny Depp in 21 Jumpstreet I would have to say my first real boy crush was a boy named Donovan. I was in the second grade, Ms. Crockett’s class and we would play together at recess. I can still remember the butterflies I had in my stomach and his 90s bowl cut.

Who was your first kiss? I have always been a very curious, very forward child/adult. In kindergarten, I had a boyfriend named Gabriel, we locked ourselves in a closet and kissed, it was romantic. My first “actual” kiss happened in the back of a car my sophomore year of high school with an older boy who I liked A LOT. That was not romantic by any means.

What are your views on Tinder and other dating apps? I have a lot of wishy-washy feelings with Tinder and other dating apps. My friends use Tinder, but I am terrible at Tinder. I’ll start talking to a male I am interested in and about 20 mins in, I lose interest. I don’t think I even have the guts to go and meet a person off Tinder. I think its a good avenue for people who are comfortable with meeting strangers and confident in themselves to go through with it.

What was the best date you ever had? I am hands down, a very simple, very don’t care for huge things type of lady. My best date would have to be going to the Texas Chili Parlor, eating steak and chili like a queen then going to see Lincoln with Daniel Day Lewis in theaters. We even went to the store and bought a jar of pickles so that I can eat them all during the movie. . This is seriously the key to my heart, chili, pickles and Abraham Lincoln.

What was the worst date you ever had? Lord, it was my birthday, and my boyfriend at the time for whatever reason got trashed out of his mind. It was MY birthday, and I was sober. So our friends wanted to take me to a strip club, I think I was 22 and so my boyfriend and I went. I always wanted to go to one, so it wasn’t an odd venture or anything. We roll up to the strip club and my boyfriend is sick. He’s begging me to go have fun without him and he’ll just be sick in the car and wait it out. So instead of making my friends take us home, I sat in the backseat with him in my lap, stroking his hair, on my birthday.

What goes through your head when you first realize you have feelings for someone?I NEED to know everything there is to know about you.

What is the first trait that attracts you to someone? I used to be a sucker for a good smile. In some ways, I still am but by god if you can make me laugh from the pit of my stomach and tears roll down my eyes, I am hooked.

How would you describe heartbreak? Lost. Heartbreak is fear of not knowing how you will continue on after this experience. Who will you become, will you like this person you have morphed into? It’s sadness and darkness rolled into a tight black ball, its debilitating.

What is your break up routine? In my early years my routine would be to always have the last say. It was a sad form of putting everything onto the other person, this was his fault. Always resulted in one last hate sex just to confirm that this wasn’t my fault.

Now that I am older, I just walk away, sad for awhile, hang out with my friends a lot more and learn to cope. I surround myself with work and distractions and try to find beauty in the time we had. As I’ve gotten older I have matured in my ways and my breakups have been amicable and we stay friends.

Have you ever been in love? Yes, twice.

Do you think it’s possible to love two people at the same time? I think there are many ways to see this question and not in terms of loving like your S.O and child. I think you can love someone a lot, love him so much that your soul cries and you can also have the same feelings for another person. Your soul will love another soul whether you like it or not. I think if you are in a relationship it gets a little trickier, poly relationships are okay to have, as long as all parties are game. Open relationships are the same. Not having communication with someone that you are with about loving another is unfair but it is possible. Your soul will love whomever it wants.

What does love mean to you? In my honest opinion, love is an understanding between two people. An understanding of who you are inside and out, who they are inside and out and together you/they work to make each other happy, satisfied, fulfilled, enlightened. Its a piece to your soul that you didn’t realize was missing finally coming together to one.

I for one have found love twice, but both of those times something didn’t work. So perhaps It’s not the everlasting love that most people/love stories make you believe love is but for the time in my life that they are around to fill that void, I am in love.

What advice do you have for someone who has never been in love? I have no idea what kind of advice to give you. Fall in love with yourself, fall in love with strangers, fall in love with the idea that love is everywhere. Its cliche as fuck but everyone has a different interpretation for love. Mine has to do with my soul being completely enamored by a man’s soul for 10 years and though we love one another very much, belong together in every way, life pulls us apart. You’ve got to figure out who you are, before you can open yourself up to a task such as understanding love and what you see it as.

The only other thing I need is a picture of what true love means to you! honestly didn’t know what picture I could choose that wanted to depict what this type of true love means to me. So I picked an old couple having a laugh, because I am sure when i finally decide to settle I’ll be old, and he’ll be there.