Nobody puts baillee in the corner

A little over a year ago, I started this very blog.I didn’t have a lot of confidence in my writing.  I had just become the Assistant Manager at SuperSouth.  I still had hair. Oh how the turntables….

A year ago, I was trembling as I took my fingers to my keyboard. I didn’t think anyone would want to read/cared about what I had to say. Since then, I’ve become an open eBook and written about everything from being a virgin and bisexual to my views on religion to my complicated relationship to my father. I even landed my first writing gig. I’ve learned to share myself completely, and I can’t even begin to thank everyone for not only their support but their acceptance. I would have never been able to get off the ground without all of the people who let me flood their email and text messages with links and rough drafts. (Thanks Ma for always believing I could do this, by the way).

I lost SuperSouth, and for a long while, I lost myself. I couldn’t write; all of my words felt flat and lack-luster. Podcasting was no longer appealing. I cast away all of my creative inspiration and desire to do anything. It took me a few months to get back on my feet, but after a few months, I was finally able to return to my quirky little version of normalcy, thanks to help of my new staff, old staff, and all of the other wonderful people in my life. I also learned the implications of being a workaholics and realized I was immersing too much of myself in my job. Writing out all of my feelings on this little, humble blog helped me to once again find myself.

I could have never shaved my head a year ago. (Hell, I couldn’t even muster up the courage for an undercut). I was afraid of what everyone would think. I was scared it exposed my face. I was worried I had a lumpy head. I’ve learned to be 100% confident in myself. I’ve stopped worrying about always wearing a bra (I honestly rarely wear one anymore), and I actually wore a crop top the other day. I wear every color lipstick imaginable, and other days, I’m okay wearing no makeup at all. My wardrobe varies all the way from Scary Spice to Posh Spice, and I love each and every piece of it. The creation of this blog is once again the culprit and has upped the ante on my understanding of body acceptance.

Quite frankly, having this blog for the past year has made me more confident in almost every area of my life. I’ve learned it’s sometimes okay to disassociate yourself from work. I can write about anything I want to write about with little to no worry of the implications. I freaking shaved my head when a haircut went awry. I’m more Baillee MaCloud Perkins than I’ve ever been. Here’s to the next year, my faithful readers. If you’re ever feeling down, remember: nobody puts Baillee (or you) in the corner.