Who was your first crush?
My first crush I can remember was a boy named David that I grew up. He never knew, I never told anyone until now, and we ended up being friends throughout school, but as we got older we didn’t talk much unless we had a class together.
Who was your first kiss?
My first kiss was in 8th grade with a boy named John and I will never forget it because it was Halloween night AND he stuck his tounge in my mouth. I, (being 14 and having no idea about how normal it is to stick your tongue in someone else’s mouth) hit him for that. Needless to say he was more experienced in that area so our “relationship” lasted a few months before I broke up with him, to which in sure I have an absolutely lame excuse
What are your views on Tinder and other dating apps?
I don’t like the idea of online dating. Especially Tinder. I just like to do things the old fashioned way. You bump into them while you’re lost in thought and naturally you fall in love at first glance, right?
What was the best date you ever had?
The best date I ever had was 10/29/15 where Kyle, my now boyfriend, asked me to go out two-steppin with him. Where we danced the might away until we came back to our school. Once we were at the school, he played a lot, and I mean A LOT, of romantic country music. We danced in the bed of his truck until he finally found the courage to ask me to be his girlfriend, where of course I said yes
What was the worst date you ever had?
The worst date I’ve ever had was when I got taken to a park. Seems sweet enough right? Walk around getting to know eachother, swing on some swings, watch the sun set, all the sappy stuff. HAH. No. More like “hey let me take you down this running path where I try to get into your pants…” YEAH RIGHT. Needless to say I left
What goes through yur head when you first realize you have feelings for someone?
“I thought we weren’t going to do his again? Have you not been hurt enough stupid? Oh shit he’s givin me that look Oh my gosh he’s so handsome and funny and smart and who knows maybe he’ll be different.. What do I have to lose…”
What is the first trait that attracts you to someone?
The first trait that attracts me is if they’re tall. When you’re a 5’10 woman in a world where the average man is 5’8, it’s a matter of priority. Now for something that is not as vain, someone’s smile. Nothin melts my heart faster than a boy with a pretty, shy smile and a laugh that’s contagious.
How would you describe heart break?
When dealing with people, heartbreak is when you trust someone enough to depend on them, only for you to find out how undependable and untrustworthy they are. It’s when you give all the effort you can to a relationship, while the other barely gives anything. It’s treating your someone as a priority while they treat you like an option. It’s when you would give anything just to be near that special person while they couldn’t care less where you are or what you’re doing. Heartbreak is having the realization between your perception of someone’s feelings towards you versus the reality. Heartbreak is that feeling you get when you mess up bad. I guess mess up isn’t a good enough word. Pardon my French, but heartbreak is that feeling you get when you really, and I mean really, fuck up. That empty pit in your stomach, that horribly empty feeling in your chest, that lump in your throat. Worst of all though, heart break is when you did your best, gave it your all, and you STILL aren’t good enough.
What is your break up routine?
My break up routine includes a full day of watching whatever I feel like on Netflix, a Coke and a Reese’s, and if I cry, I only get to cry that day. I can be upset for however long, but I don’t dare let myself cry excessively. Now I may have a couple crying fits in the beginning stages of being single, but most of the time it’s a one day pass to cry. Then, it’s time to get up and get over it. Because when did mopin around ever help anyone with anything?
Have you ever been in love?
Yes, I am in love right now with Kyle Thormaehlen and I am going to marry that boy one day.
Do you think it’s possible to love two people at the same time?
No I don’t. I feel like if you really loved the first person there’s no way you could fall in love with the second. So you might as well pick the second cause the first wasn’t good enough to keep your attention
What does love mean to you?
Love is selfless. It’s 2am cuddles while talking about your futures, your life goals, your aspirations. Love is considerate. There is no “I” anymore but instead a “we”. It’s thinking about the affects of your words and actions on your partner. Love is crazy. You say things you’ve never said, do things you’d never do, you even begin to entertain the thought of being (dare I even say it!) married to them! Love does not come with conditions. When you truly love someone, you love them for exactly who they are, not for the potential you see in them. You love them in that very moment, in that work in progress stage, and you know that as they work to improve themselves they too will help you improve. Most importantly, love is forgiving. People are going to mess up, it’s just one of those inevitable things. And whoever you love is going to mess up, and when they do, it is not your job to patronize, belittle, or begrudge them. This is where that “we” comes in from earlier, this is the most crucial part of love; this is where you put the relationship above yourselves, above your pride, and above your egos. When someone you love messes up, this is when your compassion and forgiveness is needed most. Forgiveness will get you a lot further than any other emotion you feel about their mess up; anger, fear, sadness, ect. Holding onto those feelings will not only hurt you, but they will destroy your relationship.
What advice do you have for someone who has never been in love?
My advice to someone who has never been in love is this: It’s okay to not be in a rush. It’s okay not to be in a relationship or even be looking for one. Know who you are and who you want to be. Focus on yourself and the kind of person you want to be in life. Keep your standards high and don’t lower them for anyone. And when the time is right and when you least expect it, it’ll happen. It’ll do you no good looking for someone to love if you don’t love yourself. So I guess that’s my best advice I can give; love yourself. Love yourself because you are worth it. Love yourself because you are uniquely and wonderfully made.
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