Nobody puts baillee in the corner

There are many universally known and accepted facts. Fire is hot. Ice is cold. Baillee bottles up all of her feelings. These are the things we know for certain. Now that we have reaffirmed these truths, we can get to the good stuff.

This isn’t meant to be a Burn Book. This isn’t a guilt trip or a cowardice way of calling people out. This is my way of coping and dealing with my emotions. I’m not going to tell you who any of these are meant for. Some of them are just general statements that encompass numerous people and things.  Don’t think of this as an attention grabber or cryptic note found in a middle school girls’ bathroom. Most importantly, don’t think too hard about this list. With the formalities out of the way, in no particular order, I give you a list of the 15 things I wish I had said in 2015.

1. I hope you realize your potential before it’s too late.
2. I don’t think you understand the full implications of what you did. If you do, you’re an awful human being.
3. I wish you were still in my life because you’d be the perfect person to talk to about everything going on.
4. I miss you everyday, and I think it’s terrible that you left without a trace.
5. I wish I had respected the hell out of you sooner.
6. You have a lot of learning to do, but I can only teach you so much.
7. I’m sorry I can be so emotionally needy.
8. I wish you would have changed into what you are sooner.
9. You need to grow up, like yesterday.
10. I wish I could help you.
11. I hope you understand why I had to leave.
12. I wish you nothing but the absolute best and really hope that one day you are truly happy.
13. Do you want to go get coffee sometime?
14. You are the most beautiful person I know.
15. You’ve made more of an impact on my life then you will ever know.