Nobody puts baillee in the corner

Alright readers, get ready for a treat. My mom recently sent me the journal I kept for several months beginning four days before my 13 birthday. I have decided to periodically share some entries with the names changed to pop culture references reflecting my youth (to protect the innocent and prevent me from getting sued in case this turns out to be my cash cow) and both implanted and footnoted a la David Foster Wallace with commentary to provide context and responses to my 13-year-old self. Please don’t think less of me and know I have come a long, long way since these were written.

“Follow me + everything is all right. I’ll be the one to 2 tuck u in @ night. + if you want 2 leave I can guarantee u won’t find no body else like me” -Follow Me (Uncle Kracker) (I liked to start every entry with a different song lyric, and they were never applicable to the day’s entry. I wish I had been that clever)..

Oct. 5, 2005

2day was normal. Daria + Mike Jones are an item, so Aaliyah’s pissed cuz she has a HUGE crush on him, so she was bad mouthin him @ lunch*. I feel like a REALLY BIG LOSER now cuz even Daria has a bf. I’ve been doing fairly good on my diet. I feel lyke crying though cuz all my friends are starting 2 get “tied down”, so a LOT of them have been getting busy cuz of  their honeys. It’s not that I want a bf, it’s just that I wanna hang out w/ my friends w/o having 2 worry ’bout PDA or “offending” their gf/bf (I believe past Baillee is referencing the fact she wore skulls and far too much black eyeliner and thought she was weird. I’m glad I outgrew wearing skulls and heavy eyeliner). Mike Jones is the only exception to the rule cuz he’s cool. I just am REALLY starting 2 get pissed cuz of all the Nick + Jessica going on! (It took me a solid 45 seconds to realize this was a Newlyweds reference and not referring to anyone) UGH! I think I’m gonna hurl! I can’t talk 2 any1 bout it either so all I can do is write bout it or keep it bottled up inside (Now that I’m all grown up and like my mom again, I cry about being single in her lap like an adult). The teen angst + drama is starting 2 kick in (I was really in to Degrassi: The Next Generation, so I’m surprised I didn’t follow it up with “It goes there.”). DAMNIT!

PEACE
-B

“She’s got a bf now, + it’s not what’s what she’s got herself into, she’s getting used 2 the lonliness that’s bottle up inside”
-She’s got a Boyfriend Now (BFS) (I also liked to end the entry with a song lyric. I guess I was a tiny bit clever with this entry, or the idea of irony was totally lost on me as a kid.)

*Shame on past Baillee for not including the juicy details; she was probably taking about the fact he didn’t use enough hair gel and/or have a good MySpace profile song.